Suffering from depression is nothing new to me….I suffered from depression as a child, a teenager and as an adult.
I’ve spent years of my life having difficulties doing the simplest tasks a human being could do.
I’ve reached the absolute bottom, having suicidal thoughts and even trying to commit suicide.
But I promised myself that I won’t let depression take control over my life anymore!
But did I keep that promise?
Well, up till now I’m trying my best to fight depression back.
I’ve learned to be high functioning even in my worst days.
But honestly, I don’t know if I’m capable of doing this anymore.
I have so many unanswered questions, I’m not satisfied with any of my accomplishments.
Nothing I do seems to be good enough.
And I’m absolutely frustrated by the fact that I have to stay on antidepressants for my whole life.
Don’t give up. Every day you keep fighting is a victory. Depression treatments are changing all the time. Body chemistry also changes. There could be a time you won’t need medicine, but you have to keep fighting to find out. I know your pain and hope you find the strength you need.
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I hope so, thank you so much!
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Trust me, I think most of us can attest to the fact that we aren’t all that trilled about taking medication for the rest of our lives either. Especially because medication has so many side effects! I’ve tried so many different kinds. Nothing has worked for me. Currently I am on Sertraline, Abilify, and Lithium. I think you are strong, I think you can keep going even if it seems like you cant go a second longer. Take it a second or a minute at time. Were all in this together. This is the first time I see one of your posts but I just want you to know you are not alone! You’re a tough cookie 🙂 I just saw this was uploaded in July. Hope you’re doing better as of late, and if not that’s okay too 🙂
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Thank you so much for your kind words, and sorry for the late reply
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