Depressed but high functioning – sharing my thoughts today

Suffering from depression is nothing new to me….I suffered from depression as a child, a teenager and as an adult. 

I’ve spent years of my life having difficulties doing the simplest tasks a human being could do. 

I’ve reached the absolute bottom, having suicidal thoughts and even trying to commit suicide. 

But I promised myself that I won’t let depression take control over my life anymore!

But did I keep that promise? 

Well, up till now I’m trying my best to fight depression back. 

I’ve learned to be high functioning even in my worst days.

But honestly, I don’t know if I’m capable of doing this anymore. 

I have so many unanswered questions, I’m not satisfied with any of my accomplishments.

Nothing I do seems to be good enough.

And I’m absolutely frustrated by the fact that I have to stay on antidepressants for my whole life.