Loving yourself can be hard sometimes
No matter how hard you try, you can’t see the bright side of things.
You can only notice your flaws, what you lack and everything just turns black, until it becomes the color of your reality.
You ask yourself why you’re not good enough.
You make a list of things you need to change about yourself, but you don’t have enough energy to do anything about it.
You feel tired of pretending to be okay when you’re not.
You become a hopeless creature that can’t escape it’s dark thoughts, and you feel stuck.
But when is this going to end? I wanna live and see colors once again, but when’s that gonna happen?
I’m tired of the pills i swallow everyday to make my dark thoughts go away, but i still have them anyway.
Does this mean it could’ve been worse? Well that’s sad.
My therapist says it won’t last long, and i know it’s true, but it won’t be the last time i feel this way either.
So when is this vicious cycle gonna end?